Surprise surprise

I was woken up at 7am by a text.  "gong" I thought to myself, who would be texting me this early in the morning?! I slowly rolled over and grabbed my phone.  Grabbing my phone took too much energy out of me, so I laid it on my chest. "bzzzz..." the reminder on my phone vibrated against my vocal chords.

I opened my eyes a crack, and then like Japanime I was awake.  It was a text from Mr. Materialistic/ Mr. Fools Gold.   I was surprised.  I was even more surprised by his text!! "come to la.  write with my best friends. they want you so bad for session work"  My heart leaped, its still leaping.  so...he was talking about me:) hehehe. oh us girls are so silly.  He went on about how he wanted me to make moves, so i can make moneys, and I responded yes, so we can travel the world, and then he said he loved me, and said i loved him too..giddy giddy giddy xoxo hearts stars and...STOP! hold up...whats happening here.

I was flattered.  I am flattered, but all this flattery leaves me all hot and bothered.  I'm finally hanging out with a guy who communicates the best out of anyone, he cooks, he's clean, he's motivated, and I think kind of likes me..pretty sure he does, and then 'KABOOM' well...hellooooo.

Its interesting, they say when you are not looking is when things come your way.  Its always true. But I believe that's because you find it in the growing process of becoming stronger, being comfortable in your own skin.  Than once you are comfortable and things begin to move you have to become vulnerable yet again, and allow people to assist you and continue to build you up.  One big flipping roller coaster.  And now I'm on a roller coaster that is starting to have detours.

As much as I like Mr. Materialistic, Im really interested to see where Mississippi Mushu will lead.  In all honesty I'm thinking Mushu is going to end up being a dear friend.  Mr. Materialistic (remember..he's really not.just picky) He is kind of tugging at my heart strings a little more.  In a strange way I'm starting to understand the choice The Bachelor has to make..but he makes some pretty dumb ones.

all in all, it was a great surprise and definitely motivated my day.  I'm flattered.  I've never experienced this before and its honestly kind of nice:) Having 2 guys care for you, be cautious, and curious about what you're thinking...hmm..if they only knew what I'm thinking.. than they'd be in for the surprise:)