Lust detox..

So, its happening... I'm about to have no dates, no boys, no males in my bed until my birthday..in August.  Thats 6 months away.  So here's whats going on.

My first time, i was 18.  After that, I wasn't with anyone until I was 22.  To shorten the story, lets just say, I didn't particularly want to be with the 2nd guy, but it happened and after that..i went on a rampage.

Since 2005, i don't think i've gone more than 3 weeks without kissing, cuddling, making out, hooking up, being in relationship with someone.  It wasn't until I was talking to my roommate about this, that we both realized...we need a detox.

Like any detox, you go through the withdrawals, the tantrums, and you want to quit, and then there's the relapse.  And this is why, my roommate and I are joining forces..but its been difficult.  I never saw myself as a "serial dater" but as it turns out, I'm just a "serial luster" I want, i get, want it again, but it doesn't stick and I keep going after my dirty habit.

The first thing I've had to do, is get rid of the remainder guys that I could just call up and well..booty call.  It started with one of my young guns...he's ...exceptionally younger than me, but we've always had a good time.  That was pretty easy.  I just stopped calling/texting/ attending his shows.  He's young enough, girls his age are like young snakes and don't know how to stop biting.

The second one ( yeah there's multiple) our lust affairs were sneaky from the start.  Turns out one of his ex girlfriends was a friend of mine.  Yes, I'm a bit of a bad person, because before hooking up with him, i found out this information, but time had passed, this girl got a boyfriend, and we went at it..several times.  But, he insisted it be kept secret. so we did.

I went to a party he was throwing, and oops! Caught him in his room with another girl.  Having to get my keys from his room was a bit awkward, but necessary, and meh..i wasn't emotionally attached, so "bon voyage!"

There were several others in the mix, but this last one...ooh this last one. He's here now. Sweet, big heart, he's got that twinkle smolder look.. From the outside you'd probably go..really? you and him? Yeah, he's really hot, and i'm really awkward.. but.. Yep..it works.  Except for one thing.  He's so in love with the road, he's scared to face whats right in front of his face, and me being the persistent one, I think if anything i'm chasing him away.  Its going to be tough seeing this one go, but so necessary.

Its 7pm, and I"ve told a friend I'd meet her for some Wine...I'm still waiting for this last one to call me to hang out. I'm scared its not going to happen...i'm sad its not going to happen, and then the truth will sink in; I'm beyond single.