I'm a pretty good communicator. At least I think I am. If you call me and I don't want to talk to you, I will not pick up. If I pick up and I don't want to go to something you're asking me to go to, I'll tell you I don't want to go. If you ask me if you like your haircut, and I don't...but..i can tell you're in love with it, I'm not going to crush your spirits, but I'll probably make a suggestion as to how it could look better. All to say, I feel i'm pretty good at communicating.
So in this day and age, we not only have to worry about the inflections in our voice, our nonverbal communication, or our verbal phrasing, but we also have to consider how we type, text, and emoticon it. If you ever receive any type of email or text from me, it will look something like this:
!!!!!! :/ :) :( ,:D ^_^ ???? .....
I pretty much text how I speak, because some where along the lines, someone ends up reading into something that they shouldn't. Another thing I do, is if someone I don't care to speak for texts me..i won't text them back. This is pretty general, but I usually won't text back because I never want to speak to the person again, I feel that no response should say it all. Although this is how I approach it.. without confrontation, I assume others do the same...but for the reasons they stop communicating..thats what i don't understand.
When the "last boy" did not text me back, I assumed he didn't want to hang out with me, but why not? Everything was fine, and I knew he wasn't interested in our friend. Our mutual friend didn't communicate with me either though...hmmm. I did however, text to the point of possible "boy who travels with bands" planning annoyance. But i'm a planner! Maybe I communicated too much, but so what!! At this point, because I'm such a planner and communicated..i'm assuming he thinks i'm some crazy person like his ex who hit him in the face...ok so maybe i did that to an ex once, but he deserved it (no really, ex and I broke up and 2 days later we went out together and he kissed another girl in front of me..deserved. "last boy"s girl, just slapped him cuz she was drunk)
So, then there's tonight. I introduced a guy friend who is in town just until tomorrow, to a friend I was just getting to know last night. They exchanged numbers and we talked about enjoying tonight, and painting the town red! My gal pal and I both had separate plans earlier in the night, but as soon as they were done we contacted one another.
First it was meet here, than it was meet there, and then I went there, and waited..and waited...and decided to walk where I knew other people I knew would be around so I wasn't freezing all by myself at some bar. I couldn't get a hold of my guy friend, so I called my gal pal, expressed my frozen ness and suggested they all meet up with my gal pal and I's other friends.
I got a "on the phone call you in a bit" but that never happened. I tried to contact other members in the band, but nothing. absolutely nothing. did they get what they wanted? yes, and what was that. A few attractive girls phone numbers and although, i of course am attractive (wink wink) I wasn't going to sleep with any of these guys, so..leave her in the dust. Now maybe that isn't true, but what else am I to think? I'm in a bar..by myself..because i was told to meet there, but nothing..and still nothing.
I even made a joke of "no idea where you fools are! :D! " and nothing. Id only hope my gal pal and guy friend went on a little rendezvous..and how great am I to hook them up, but a little "hey things are going down ;) * wink face " would have been nice.
I am getting the feeling still that people are trying to push me out, but I really don't know what I've done. I haven't taken money, or talked bad about anyone. I haven't embarrassed or harassed. If anything I've spent more than enough time, and sometimes money for/ with these people, who obviously are not appreciative..and so i cut them out. I cut them out, and I find more friends, and then those friends go and the other ones come back, but then, i realize I have but a few close friends, and I guess thats why they call them best friends.
Hope some day I"ll know. I'm really tired of annoying people and making them think they don't want to hang out with me, at least thats what I think they are thinking...no idea why!
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